Welcome to my life ..

Hmm .. today just went to Cherrie's house ... one of my sis, incase u guys and gals out there think the wrong thing.Help her to check bout her com .. and we went to BK to had light lunch or snack. Went to Glad Sounds to get the Planet Shakers CD for herself. I drop by her house once again, and her 2 lil dawgie seems to be misbehave. Fifi and Hercules jumping up and down around me.. Fifi was quite ok .. yet Hercules seems non stop hugging my leg, bark at me and even sneeze at me .. =7 Moments later .. Fifi start licking my pants .. makes me wonder there is something in my pants, other than the wallet and handphone .. Argh ! I smells like dawgie after i left her house.

Life is roller coaster .. up and downs .. yet .. As i said before. This is a dog eat dog world .. I seriously not happy with alot of things that happen around me. I realise that i actually no frens in the class. Frens .. is someone that is suppose to help u or wateva it is .. but what i got is those fella who actually taking advantage all the while !Wateva things I will be the victim who actually suffer and tired. Even a small lil minor things, they just planned to get advantage. This is just my life !!

Think back (again!!) I really need to change my lifestyle .. I guess in this 2005 .. is time to say bye to the old me .. That means .. i wont be that helpful again. Y ? Coz i haf too .. Look at me by now. Since when ppl wont take advantage on me... this is simply because i will never learn how to say "NO". Saying "NO" is something very hard to me. Just like what Liz and Esther says. Is nice to actually helping ppl, but i need to learn how to say "NO" to avoid being taking advantage from ppl. The 1st thing . i will be doin that to my class rite now. Watever they try to ask .. I will just say "NO" This is for what I have been treat all the while. This is bout me to show them show some respect on me. At least some respect. From time to time i trying to help any of them whenever they need, sounds nice eh ? Yeah .. nice .. nice until me myself die alone. When i need help .. there goes everyone away and bz ..if not start telling me .. aiya .. so susah la .. this and that. So by now, enuff of helping and i want to take back something that is mine and Now ! U die is ur prob .. dun try to ask me !!

Banging myself everywhere and everytime. Facing walls and spikes and junctions in my life. I have choosen this road 6 years ago. I thought it will be a nice wan .. yet is that tough which i never thought b4. GUess wat .. thinking to ask me to give up ?? Over my dead body and i will say NO! Did i just said this is the road i had choose ? So whats the point ask me to give up ? I noe this will be tough, and ET is not that fragile .. all i can say is .. Bring It On !! Is This what U can do ?? Beat me then !!

I see midst in my future, I guess i total lost my way ..Just in time .. Liz gave me a good advise .. sounds normal .. but u noe, when u really lost .. those advise is bout reminding u and is really can make an impact.

[05:45:48 PM] martian ET : =( I see mist aje la liz
[05:48:46 PM] ~a-g-a-p-e~ : pray la
[05:48:53 PM] ~a-g-a-p-e~ : be happy
[05:49:08 PM] martian ET : i try to move on from pass .. trying hard
to get rid of it
[05:49:24 PM] ~a-g-a-p-e~ : do not be anxious, but in everything by
prayer and petition, with thanksgiving, present your
requets unto GOd
[05:49:41 PM] martian ET : sounds very familiar
[05:49:54 PM] ~a-g-a-p-e~ : and the peace of God which transcends all
understanding will guard your hearts and minds in Christ
Jesus

Honestly .. thanks alot liz .. U the best, u alwiz there when i sad. I just wonder . y i noe u so late ? I hope that i can actually noe u longer. But .. thanks to the Plot of Land that bind us together and noe each other.